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 Going off to jemputan soon. following my parents. Haiyah, i alone sia.
After that will be back to woodlands to take my whole family to Wendy's (:
Should be going around town also. Well, yesterday was hectic. Im so tired.
BBQ pictures on FB. Yesterday, bby didnt follow cause he's taking his new 'wife'. I miss him badly. Hopefully he'll come to my house tmrw. Alright, gtg now. byeeeeeee(: today is Sunday btw, blog suke bikin aku panas uh ! -.-
Mate dah steam koyak skrg! Didnt go to school today, woke up fucking late! Set the alarm clock At 530, snooze for 10 mins end up waking up at 625 cause heed text Me that she's at inter change alrdy. I tried to bathe, tidy my room, prepare everything
Asap but still i cant make it at 645. Went out with my brother at 705 and i ended up Sitting alone beside the mama shop-.-
Called heed and then text baby. I was like crazy women walking around cwp, bby's void deck. Thank god that he text me at 8. And thank god once again cause he get to leave his work early. Had breakfast tgether at ljs. (: finally siaaa dpt mkn lagi ^^ all the way spent time with him. tmrw tk tau how the plan gonna be. Im so irritated with my sister ! I swear i cant take it sia! june holiday, i cant follow my family to indonesia)': kakak aku nk step sweet plak kn ckp kalau aku tak gy die pon tknk gy. Nk muntah sial dngar! Dont act like as if im important to you uh k. Wanna go just go uh. Grr! Why must i go for the course and interview! Because of that have to stay at that irritating cousin house! Cb!! Hopefully i get a job so that i wont be staying there the whole day for 8 days! Make sure it must be true! If not i swear im gonna fuck everything upside down okay!
Tiring day, i cant wait for weekend.
My blister is getting worste. Tsk. I hate it sia. Its like as if im dissable person gtuk.
Now, gotta save ALOT of money! Hopefully i could make it in 2 weeks time. Going rebonding with heed and suzzy! ^^
And one more thing, i really hope that i get a job by bext week. Escape, pls hire me !!
Today, idk why im so excited for school. Slept early yesterday cause that afternoon went jogging w bby. For me its far but fpr him its not. Was so hot that i almost fainted while walking through the 'jungle' that leads us to RP. Yah, for h its lile, im giving excuses. How i wish everyone could know each other feelings, woulndt it be great? Hmm. lesson was okay, lots of things need to brush up and i Bought new book for my revision(: i felt sucks being in this situation. Sometime i just feel like giving up and killing myself for everything. FML!
 I seriously miss my secondary schoolmates, especially my class mate. Idk why i just feel like crying right now.)': looking back at the pictures that shak tag some of the old picture with others on fb reminds me of the past. We cry, we love, we fight, we kiss, we hug, we spent time like almost everyday! Hopefully, we'll have another outing together soon.Afternoon will be going for a jog with bby. Hopefully we can jog as far as we could. I gotta trAin hard cause napha test is coming during may and also buck up on my studies. Recently, my name was called in class on customer service test. I seriously dont understand how could i fail that fucking test. All i know is that, i did revise my book before the paper and my answer are simmilar with suzzane answers. Dont tell me he mark it strict? But wadehell right, at least i gave my keypoints even if i dont have any sentence what? And all the questions are commom sense question sia. Nbcb! I dont give a fucking care about that module la. Its not important also -.- & sumpah i benci when i said, im on diet, doesnt mean i cant eat the whole fucking day kan? fuck everything! Makan roti pon boleh jadi masalah! mum and dad has alrdy plan to go for june holiday. This is gonna be a loooooooooooong holiday. I'll be off to indonesia from 18 june - 25 june. Will be visiting my relative in Sukabumi and off to idk where. And that is where my dad's dad which my late grand father that we siblings and mum never seen before home town. I hope it'll be a good holiday for us.As for yesterday, spent the whole day cleaning up my room with my mum. WHOLE DAY okay! Kakak aku lagy satu besar nyer sial, ckp jek dah nk blek, ckp suroh kemas bilik, ader jek kasi alasan bus lambat la. Cb! I'll make sure during the holiday, she'll be painting this whole room without me helping!
Went to airport, last min plan. Sending kak siti off to Melbourne. She's going there for one month. Lame kan? it was ad cause, her mom is so close with her and she'd leaving for one month. SO then headed to opitiam to eat. IDK why i didnt have the appetite. I feel like eating but im full. Padehal, aku tk mkn sia dari pagy. hmm.Today is saturday btw. blog pon bikin hal uh!
 I have to change myself, change everything for everyone's good.
I have to control and manage my anger. Idk why, i get irritated easily nowadays. Maybe due to my period. Kalau tk period pon, same jek kan. bleagh!
Need to really save up my money since i cant work for now, even if i want no one's gonna hire me. Buat penat kan carik keje part time. call sane sini, satu bender pon takder. Hmm, i dont know until when can i have my own things. I want to Rebond hair, buy new dress, shirt, pants, new shoes, heels, bag. Everytime there's sale, i just have to look and walk away from it. I know, all this is not a need for me but atleast, if i have money, i dont have to ask my parents to give me a little bit extra money for it. But for sure, i wont get what i want. No point asking them also. Let it be la. Raya also coming, get kaching also can buy only 1 stuff. -.-
Brang pon dah mahal. tsk. Idk, is this a good news or what, but i loose 1 kg. I know right, pathetic habes.
 Yesterday was suppose to go gym with heed & suzzy but end up we didnt.
Thanks to SH that she didn want us to cancel the class. grr!
So then, heed and i went to Bugis to change bby's shirt at topman, off to Iluma to buy KOI. Headed to Lakeside to meet malee to eat Nasi Ayam Penyet @ Makan Shiok!
Walk around at jurong point and off to woodlands. Didnt meet bby the whole day as he's busy helping zul. Oh well, i've started my diet meal plan 3 days ago. Later on will be cooking my own meal and going to the tailor's house in the afternoon. hmm.
Im so bored now, like seriously. I've been looking for jobs for almost 2 months and i couldnt even get 1. ):
     Basically, i didnt wanna post anything yesterday was because my 1 yr anni is today, not yesterday. We were in bad terms recently for no reason. But still, i love you so much. Well, we celebrated yesterday instead of today was because he's working and im schooling. Sadly, we only took 5 pictures togethere cause his brother was using the camera yesterday. But, its okay, doesnt mean every moment must have a picture right? It will always be in my mind and his for sure. I still cant believe it that we have gone this far. I only knew you for 3 days and you ask me to be your girlfriend after we date on 130410. That night, i wasnt even sure of myself, wether im doing the right thing of choosing you to be my forever. Tell me, which girl or guy would trust a guy/girl within 3 days? I bet no one will. After 1 yr and 3 months of being single, finally i met you. Day by day, as days pass by, i started to love you more and im very sure that you're my forever. Untill the day, you brought me to meet your family, i am confident and till now im confident that you're the one that i want to be with for the rest of my life. Thank god that my parents has already, officially accept you to be with me. For the past few years, i had difficulty when it comes to relationship. Now, there's no need to wrry, but i still need to prove my parents that i can be a successful person. Before i knew him, lots of stories i've heard about fire fighter guys or well known as 'CD GUYS' like to use girls, not serious in relationship and stuff. But i know you're different and thats why, i choose you. I love you so much syg and we still have long way to go. Even if i dont really text or call you due to my prepaid low, you know that i never fail to think of you and the most important thing is that, i love you so much and will always do. currently, im still finding part time job. I need em' badly! ):
Firstly, i hate you since the day you throw the key to me and that was 2 years back. Thanks to Arwah Cikgu Iswani that im acting like as if im in good terms with you. If not, sampai sekarang aku pon tk ingin nak baek2 ngn kau. Pasal kau leave form tk boleh dpt. Thanks eh. Org nak support nak tolong, kau pulak prangai. -.- suke menyusah kan hidop org. Dah bikin org susah, tau nk carik org balek!Secondly, i have no choice but to take MC tmrw. tsk! Duit lagy! Thirdly, im celebrating my my 1 year anni tmrw! I know right! cepat pe! Im so happy yknow. Soon, we're gonna be busy cause im starting my attachment in 3 months time and ure gonna be working for the whole day after ORD. No matter what, i love you so much okay budak cute (: i so love school today. I think im like enjoying it. I cant believe im saying this but its like i really enjoy myself and i really hope i can change to be better. Thhis year is my last year, and i have to give ma best to everything that i do. I thank god for not giving other teacher to teach us. As in like the other nursing lecturer to tech us. If not, i guess life would be much more difficult right now. Okay, when im free, i'll update anything.
 Now im muching on some titbits. hais.
I just wish i could stop this habbits and go for a jog with bby like i did say to him last time. I bet he dont even remember this. I told him to make it up that every weekend, we'll go for a jog together. But it seems not to be working. Just now, mum wanted to go to our usual tailor and she kept saying that i need to change all my old usual size to a new one cause im fat. And yet she could say, " last year nye baju tk muat lagi kan? " i was alrdy fcked up cause i've wore it few days back just to try and yet she say i cant fit it in. -.- I know im fat la, but please tk payah nak sacarstic pe? I swear i just feel like fucking kill myself! no one is helping me on this. Even boyfriend is lazy to go for a jog with me. Seriously, i need a partner to loose weight together with me. I cant possibly meet Suzanne at pasir ris to jog kan? That is too far away. But i've always ask her when. Feel like signing up for the Fitness thinggy at Vivo. But i need $$. Every month $95 sia. Seriously, someone help me please? )':" I might just kill myself so that people will have a happier life "
 I did this fish braiding on my own(:I've been sleeping late and wking up late recently.
Need to have a proper sleeping time as next week will be starting of the first day of school. And since i came back from India, i've been having dihorea. Hais, but still i cant control myself from eating all those spicey food that my mum cook.
Im off to JB tonight with my parents only. So random kan my mum ask me to follow. hmm.Jadi manusie, jgn kepo and jgn jadi mcm paham nk masok campor urusan rumah tangge org. betul kan relationship diri sendiri dulu baru boleh la nak ckp org atau nk sebuk pon. tengok la nanti ape jadi, tapi aku memang tau kau slalu world tk payah la nak step gerek depan org sume k. Mcm brani je nk tegur org, padehal kecut nak mampos!
 Im back from India, FINALLY IM HOME BEYBEH!
I shall not tell the whole story here cause its gonna be a long post
jari boleh patah. Oh well, So far im doing good but i did get sick
during one of the days. We all were getting fatter2 each day there
eventhough we ate vegetarian food. Ape tk nye, mkn 3 kali satu hari.
Tmrw, going for a jog with boyfriend around admiralty park.
I dont really have words to say actly. I shall stop here.
" If really one day you're gonna leave the one have given you the best just because of size, height & love. I know i'm the one to be blame. "
Going off to jemputan soon. following my parents. Haiyah, i alone sia.
After that will be back to woodlands to take my whole family to Wendy's (:
Should be going around town also. Well, yesterday was hectic. Im so tired.
BBQ pictures on FB. Yesterday, bby didnt follow cause he's taking his new 'wife'. I miss him badly. Hopefully he'll come to my house tmrw. Alright, gtg now. byeeeeeee(: today is Sunday btw, blog suke bikin aku panas uh ! -.-
Mate dah steam koyak skrg! Didnt go to school today, woke up fucking late! Set the alarm clock At 530, snooze for 10 mins end up waking up at 625 cause heed text Me that she's at inter change alrdy. I tried to bathe, tidy my room, prepare everything
Asap but still i cant make it at 645. Went out with my brother at 705 and i ended up Sitting alone beside the mama shop-.-
Called heed and then text baby. I was like crazy women walking around cwp, bby's void deck. Thank god that he text me at 8. And thank god once again cause he get to leave his work early. Had breakfast tgether at ljs. (: finally siaaa dpt mkn lagi ^^ all the way spent time with him. tmrw tk tau how the plan gonna be. Im so irritated with my sister ! I swear i cant take it sia! june holiday, i cant follow my family to indonesia)': kakak aku nk step sweet plak kn ckp kalau aku tak gy die pon tknk gy. Nk muntah sial dngar! Dont act like as if im important to you uh k. Wanna go just go uh. Grr! Why must i go for the course and interview! Because of that have to stay at that irritating cousin house! Cb!! Hopefully i get a job so that i wont be staying there the whole day for 8 days! Make sure it must be true! If not i swear im gonna fuck everything upside down okay!
Tiring day, i cant wait for weekend.
My blister is getting worste. Tsk. I hate it sia. Its like as if im dissable person gtuk.
Now, gotta save ALOT of money! Hopefully i could make it in 2 weeks time. Going rebonding with heed and suzzy! ^^
And one more thing, i really hope that i get a job by bext week. Escape, pls hire me !!
Today, idk why im so excited for school. Slept early yesterday cause that afternoon went jogging w bby. For me its far but fpr him its not. Was so hot that i almost fainted while walking through the 'jungle' that leads us to RP. Yah, for h its lile, im giving excuses. How i wish everyone could know each other feelings, woulndt it be great? Hmm. lesson was okay, lots of things need to brush up and i Bought new book for my revision(: i felt sucks being in this situation. Sometime i just feel like giving up and killing myself for everything. FML!
I seriously miss my secondary schoolmates, especially my class mate. Idk why i just feel like crying right now.)': looking back at the pictures that shak tag some of the old picture with others on fb reminds me of the past. We cry, we love, we fight, we kiss, we hug, we spent time like almost everyday! Hopefully, we'll have another outing together soon.Afternoon will be going for a jog with bby. Hopefully we can jog as far as we could. I gotta trAin hard cause napha test is coming during may and also buck up on my studies. Recently, my name was called in class on customer service test. I seriously dont understand how could i fail that fucking test. All i know is that, i did revise my book before the paper and my answer are simmilar with suzzane answers. Dont tell me he mark it strict? But wadehell right, at least i gave my keypoints even if i dont have any sentence what? And all the questions are commom sense question sia. Nbcb! I dont give a fucking care about that module la. Its not important also -.- & sumpah i benci when i said, im on diet, doesnt mean i cant eat the whole fucking day kan? fuck everything! Makan roti pon boleh jadi masalah! mum and dad has alrdy plan to go for june holiday. This is gonna be a loooooooooooong holiday. I'll be off to indonesia from 18 june - 25 june. Will be visiting my relative in Sukabumi and off to idk where. And that is where my dad's dad which my late grand father that we siblings and mum never seen before home town. I hope it'll be a good holiday for us.As for yesterday, spent the whole day cleaning up my room with my mum. WHOLE DAY okay! Kakak aku lagy satu besar nyer sial, ckp jek dah nk blek, ckp suroh kemas bilik, ader jek kasi alasan bus lambat la. Cb! I'll make sure during the holiday, she'll be painting this whole room without me helping!
Went to airport, last min plan. Sending kak siti off to Melbourne. She's going there for one month. Lame kan? it was ad cause, her mom is so close with her and she'd leaving for one month. SO then headed to opitiam to eat. IDK why i didnt have the appetite. I feel like eating but im full. Padehal, aku tk mkn sia dari pagy. hmm.Today is saturday btw. blog pon bikin hal uh!
I have to change myself, change everything for everyone's good.
I have to control and manage my anger. Idk why, i get irritated easily nowadays. Maybe due to my period. Kalau tk period pon, same jek kan. bleagh!
Need to really save up my money since i cant work for now, even if i want no one's gonna hire me. Buat penat kan carik keje part time. call sane sini, satu bender pon takder. Hmm, i dont know until when can i have my own things. I want to Rebond hair, buy new dress, shirt, pants, new shoes, heels, bag. Everytime there's sale, i just have to look and walk away from it. I know, all this is not a need for me but atleast, if i have money, i dont have to ask my parents to give me a little bit extra money for it. But for sure, i wont get what i want. No point asking them also. Let it be la. Raya also coming, get kaching also can buy only 1 stuff. -.-
Brang pon dah mahal. tsk. Idk, is this a good news or what, but i loose 1 kg. I know right, pathetic habes.
Yesterday was suppose to go gym with heed & suzzy but end up we didnt.
Thanks to SH that she didn want us to cancel the class. grr!
So then, heed and i went to Bugis to change bby's shirt at topman, off to Iluma to buy KOI. Headed to Lakeside to meet malee to eat Nasi Ayam Penyet @ Makan Shiok!
Walk around at jurong point and off to woodlands. Didnt meet bby the whole day as he's busy helping zul. Oh well, i've started my diet meal plan 3 days ago. Later on will be cooking my own meal and going to the tailor's house in the afternoon. hmm.
Im so bored now, like seriously. I've been looking for jobs for almost 2 months and i couldnt even get 1. ):
Basically, i didnt wanna post anything yesterday was because my 1 yr anni is today, not yesterday. We were in bad terms recently for no reason. But still, i love you so much. Well, we celebrated yesterday instead of today was because he's working and im schooling. Sadly, we only took 5 pictures togethere cause his brother was using the camera yesterday. But, its okay, doesnt mean every moment must have a picture right? It will always be in my mind and his for sure. I still cant believe it that we have gone this far. I only knew you for 3 days and you ask me to be your girlfriend after we date on 130410. That night, i wasnt even sure of myself, wether im doing the right thing of choosing you to be my forever. Tell me, which girl or guy would trust a guy/girl within 3 days? I bet no one will. After 1 yr and 3 months of being single, finally i met you. Day by day, as days pass by, i started to love you more and im very sure that you're my forever. Untill the day, you brought me to meet your family, i am confident and till now im confident that you're the one that i want to be with for the rest of my life. Thank god that my parents has already, officially accept you to be with me. For the past few years, i had difficulty when it comes to relationship. Now, there's no need to wrry, but i still need to prove my parents that i can be a successful person. Before i knew him, lots of stories i've heard about fire fighter guys or well known as 'CD GUYS' like to use girls, not serious in relationship and stuff. But i know you're different and thats why, i choose you. I love you so much syg and we still have long way to go. Even if i dont really text or call you due to my prepaid low, you know that i never fail to think of you and the most important thing is that, i love you so much and will always do. currently, im still finding part time job. I need em' badly! ):
Firstly, i hate you since the day you throw the key to me and that was 2 years back. Thanks to Arwah Cikgu Iswani that im acting like as if im in good terms with you. If not, sampai sekarang aku pon tk ingin nak baek2 ngn kau. Pasal kau leave form tk boleh dpt. Thanks eh. Org nak support nak tolong, kau pulak prangai. -.- suke menyusah kan hidop org. Dah bikin org susah, tau nk carik org balek!Secondly, i have no choice but to take MC tmrw. tsk! Duit lagy! Thirdly, im celebrating my my 1 year anni tmrw! I know right! cepat pe! Im so happy yknow. Soon, we're gonna be busy cause im starting my attachment in 3 months time and ure gonna be working for the whole day after ORD. No matter what, i love you so much okay budak cute (: i so love school today. I think im like enjoying it. I cant believe im saying this but its like i really enjoy myself and i really hope i can change to be better. Thhis year is my last year, and i have to give ma best to everything that i do. I thank god for not giving other teacher to teach us. As in like the other nursing lecturer to tech us. If not, i guess life would be much more difficult right now. Okay, when im free, i'll update anything.
Now im muching on some titbits. hais.
I just wish i could stop this habbits and go for a jog with bby like i did say to him last time. I bet he dont even remember this. I told him to make it up that every weekend, we'll go for a jog together. But it seems not to be working. Just now, mum wanted to go to our usual tailor and she kept saying that i need to change all my old usual size to a new one cause im fat. And yet she could say, " last year nye baju tk muat lagi kan? " i was alrdy fcked up cause i've wore it few days back just to try and yet she say i cant fit it in. -.- I know im fat la, but please tk payah nak sacarstic pe? I swear i just feel like fucking kill myself! no one is helping me on this. Even boyfriend is lazy to go for a jog with me. Seriously, i need a partner to loose weight together with me. I cant possibly meet Suzanne at pasir ris to jog kan? That is too far away. But i've always ask her when. Feel like signing up for the Fitness thinggy at Vivo. But i need $$. Every month $95 sia. Seriously, someone help me please? )':" I might just kill myself so that people will have a happier life "
I did this fish braiding on my own(:I've been sleeping late and wking up late recently.
Need to have a proper sleeping time as next week will be starting of the first day of school. And since i came back from India, i've been having dihorea. Hais, but still i cant control myself from eating all those spicey food that my mum cook.
Im off to JB tonight with my parents only. So random kan my mum ask me to follow. hmm.Jadi manusie, jgn kepo and jgn jadi mcm paham nk masok campor urusan rumah tangge org. betul kan relationship diri sendiri dulu baru boleh la nak ckp org atau nk sebuk pon. tengok la nanti ape jadi, tapi aku memang tau kau slalu world tk payah la nak step gerek depan org sume k. Mcm brani je nk tegur org, padehal kecut nak mampos!
Im back from India, FINALLY IM HOME BEYBEH!
I shall not tell the whole story here cause its gonna be a long post
jari boleh patah. Oh well, So far im doing good but i did get sick
during one of the days. We all were getting fatter2 each day there
eventhough we ate vegetarian food. Ape tk nye, mkn 3 kali satu hari.
Tmrw, going for a jog with boyfriend around admiralty park.
I dont really have words to say actly. I shall stop here.
" If really one day you're gonna leave the one have given you the best just because of size, height & love. I know i'm the one to be blame. "
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