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 I MISS YOU
 1975 - 2011I really didnt feel good and my body was aching this
morning. Its been 4 days that my right and left eyes have been
blinking. I didnt even think about someone who is close would
pass away. After lunch at East point with babe, headed back to school
for class. Sudden call from an unknown number, i picked up and it was
Bear. When he told me that Cikgu Iswani has pass away just now.
I break down staright away and thought it was a joke. I even yelled at him
cause I was unsure, confuse. I ran back into my class, pack my stuff and told
my teacher i had to leave. Recieved msg from papa, that she really had gone.
I broke down even harder cause i really couldnt take it animore.
Everone was looking at me and i dont even care about it.Papa called, crying telling me about the shocking and sad news.
I told him im on my way to Cikgu's house. Took 969 and drop at Yishun.
Took cab and ask wan & bear to hop in so that we wont be wasting time.
After we reach the block, we entered the wrong lift. Then when we get to find
the actual lift, i started to break down when i salam with papa.
He cried even worste cause i know, he's much more closer with Cikgu.
I went in and tried to squeeze in, i cant even see her. So then, her mum said
that they are cleaning up the body. I went out of the house for awhile
met atiqah & nani, 3 of us break down again. I cant take it & so we decided to
sit inside a room. I kept saying my prayers non stop and i really cant believe
that she's gone. Atiqah told me that, before the pass away, she even called EVG
asking about O's result. Result was at two, she called the school at 1.50+ pm
and gone at 2.05+ pm. How fast is that? Her mum kept saying
'Anak aku dah selamat (':' Looking at her children, i kept crying and i felt
really pity. After the body was clean, we then squeeze to go out to see her
face, FOR THE LAST TIME. I cried non stop with nani cause she was holding my hand
all the way. When i get to see her face, i break down more and went out of the house.
Went down and meet shak, bear & wan. I hug shak cause i cant take it anymore.
Alot of Ex EVGians were there. I didnt follow to the grave cause, im sure its gonna be packed.I did call her before she's gone, but she didnt pick up.
I remember that time i and others were at Mr Shahril's house for raya.
He told me that Cikgu just came out from hospital. I called to ask wether
she's doing fine or not. But she didnt pick up. I know, she didnt want
us to be so worried about her. She has been a very good teacher and also
a mother to all of us in evergreen. Without fail, if we have performance
she will always buy for us something to eat or much & also to drink.
She doesnt like seeing her students hungry and no mood to perform.
She is always concern about us. Her husband told me that, Cikgu have been
talking about evergreen students and misses all of us alot this past few
days. Im sorry that i didnt even visited you when you were really sick.
Saye akan rindu cikgu )':Labels: 10JAN2011
Fucking pissed off right now!
Mcm la mataey aku sorng jek yg call rumah, orang laen tk kol ah?!
Fuuuuuuuuuck sia! Kalau org tk boleh call rumah, puas hati aku dudok
merempatkan pakai public phone jek?! Hp pon bukan nyer top up kan pe.
Kalau aku pakai bill tkpe jugak kan, tkyah mataey aku buat bising call
rumah nie -.-Tak senang uh hidop duduk rumah. Mesti nak carik pasal ngan aku.
Buat tu salah nie salah, sumer salah. Aku bunoh diri baru tau.
Erg!
 I really missed her, alot.
Its been months since we last saw & hug each other.
I miss when we hang out at a random place, take pictures
gossip, talking all the way about life, guys, relationship, people.
The last time we had our outing together was, 2 years ago?
Went vivo after kena paitao with papa. Watch movie, Took lots of pictures.
And stories. I really really miss her like badly. Maybe its my fault
for not texting of even asking her hows life. Even though we're active
on FB but still, we didnt even chat or send msg to each other.
I know you wont even read this post but All the best for you O's result.
Luv ya.Currently at home alone. Everyone is out except for me ):
I've been remembering all the gohst stories inside my mind! stop it sakk!
Boyfriend now working, cant call me for now ):Yesterday, went to meet my group plus speyka's group.
Not everyone came so, we still proceed to our plan. im quite happy and satisfied
with what we're up to. Have to start everything by next week since our due date is
on 31 January 2011. haiyah.
 I feel like killing myself right now. Coughing non stop.
Its been more than a week and im still in this situation.
After 4 years of not having asthma and now it came back.
Dad ask me go Polyclinic for check up but i said i didnt want to
as im busy tmrw for India trip fund Raising. Hais.
I wonder when will i get better. School starting in a week time.
I shall say, i cant wait to start school but somehow i dont know
if i still can fucking fit in my Unifroms?I've gain weight again. waddahell?! I've been going for jogs like almost
fucking everyday but the result, i gain more weight. this is another reason
for me feeling like killing myself. Tell me, which girl doesnt wanna look
good for her boyfriend? I've tried, for 2 months and the result is still
the same. I just feel that im not suitable for him. Though he said he dont
mind but deep down inside his heart i know, he wants me to be thin back
in 2008 which is when i was sec 3. Sometimes i do feel emmbarase when im
with him. Emmbarase for being so fucking fat! fat like a fucking pig!Sorry, i dont know why im very emotional on this. I hate myself.
Bye.
I MISS YOU
1975 - 2011I really didnt feel good and my body was aching this
morning. Its been 4 days that my right and left eyes have been
blinking. I didnt even think about someone who is close would
pass away. After lunch at East point with babe, headed back to school
for class. Sudden call from an unknown number, i picked up and it was
Bear. When he told me that Cikgu Iswani has pass away just now.
I break down staright away and thought it was a joke. I even yelled at him
cause I was unsure, confuse. I ran back into my class, pack my stuff and told
my teacher i had to leave. Recieved msg from papa, that she really had gone.
I broke down even harder cause i really couldnt take it animore.
Everone was looking at me and i dont even care about it.Papa called, crying telling me about the shocking and sad news.
I told him im on my way to Cikgu's house. Took 969 and drop at Yishun.
Took cab and ask wan & bear to hop in so that we wont be wasting time.
After we reach the block, we entered the wrong lift. Then when we get to find
the actual lift, i started to break down when i salam with papa.
He cried even worste cause i know, he's much more closer with Cikgu.
I went in and tried to squeeze in, i cant even see her. So then, her mum said
that they are cleaning up the body. I went out of the house for awhile
met atiqah & nani, 3 of us break down again. I cant take it & so we decided to
sit inside a room. I kept saying my prayers non stop and i really cant believe
that she's gone. Atiqah told me that, before the pass away, she even called EVG
asking about O's result. Result was at two, she called the school at 1.50+ pm
and gone at 2.05+ pm. How fast is that? Her mum kept saying
'Anak aku dah selamat (':' Looking at her children, i kept crying and i felt
really pity. After the body was clean, we then squeeze to go out to see her
face, FOR THE LAST TIME. I cried non stop with nani cause she was holding my hand
all the way. When i get to see her face, i break down more and went out of the house.
Went down and meet shak, bear & wan. I hug shak cause i cant take it anymore.
Alot of Ex EVGians were there. I didnt follow to the grave cause, im sure its gonna be packed.I did call her before she's gone, but she didnt pick up.
I remember that time i and others were at Mr Shahril's house for raya.
He told me that Cikgu just came out from hospital. I called to ask wether
she's doing fine or not. But she didnt pick up. I know, she didnt want
us to be so worried about her. She has been a very good teacher and also
a mother to all of us in evergreen. Without fail, if we have performance
she will always buy for us something to eat or much & also to drink.
She doesnt like seeing her students hungry and no mood to perform.
She is always concern about us. Her husband told me that, Cikgu have been
talking about evergreen students and misses all of us alot this past few
days. Im sorry that i didnt even visited you when you were really sick.
Saye akan rindu cikgu )':Labels: 10JAN2011
Fucking pissed off right now!
Mcm la mataey aku sorng jek yg call rumah, orang laen tk kol ah?!
Fuuuuuuuuuck sia! Kalau org tk boleh call rumah, puas hati aku dudok
merempatkan pakai public phone jek?! Hp pon bukan nyer top up kan pe.
Kalau aku pakai bill tkpe jugak kan, tkyah mataey aku buat bising call
rumah nie -.-Tak senang uh hidop duduk rumah. Mesti nak carik pasal ngan aku.
Buat tu salah nie salah, sumer salah. Aku bunoh diri baru tau.
Erg!
I really missed her, alot.
Its been months since we last saw & hug each other.
I miss when we hang out at a random place, take pictures
gossip, talking all the way about life, guys, relationship, people.
The last time we had our outing together was, 2 years ago?
Went vivo after kena paitao with papa. Watch movie, Took lots of pictures.
And stories. I really really miss her like badly. Maybe its my fault
for not texting of even asking her hows life. Even though we're active
on FB but still, we didnt even chat or send msg to each other.
I know you wont even read this post but All the best for you O's result.
Luv ya.Currently at home alone. Everyone is out except for me ):
I've been remembering all the gohst stories inside my mind! stop it sakk!
Boyfriend now working, cant call me for now ):Yesterday, went to meet my group plus speyka's group.
Not everyone came so, we still proceed to our plan. im quite happy and satisfied
with what we're up to. Have to start everything by next week since our due date is
on 31 January 2011. haiyah.
I feel like killing myself right now. Coughing non stop.
Its been more than a week and im still in this situation.
After 4 years of not having asthma and now it came back.
Dad ask me go Polyclinic for check up but i said i didnt want to
as im busy tmrw for India trip fund Raising. Hais.
I wonder when will i get better. School starting in a week time.
I shall say, i cant wait to start school but somehow i dont know
if i still can fucking fit in my Unifroms?I've gain weight again. waddahell?! I've been going for jogs like almost
fucking everyday but the result, i gain more weight. this is another reason
for me feeling like killing myself. Tell me, which girl doesnt wanna look
good for her boyfriend? I've tried, for 2 months and the result is still
the same. I just feel that im not suitable for him. Though he said he dont
mind but deep down inside his heart i know, he wants me to be thin back
in 2008 which is when i was sec 3. Sometimes i do feel emmbarase when im
with him. Emmbarase for being so fucking fat! fat like a fucking pig!Sorry, i dont know why im very emotional on this. I hate myself.
Bye.
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