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 Happy new year everyone.(:
Thought of going to CWP with my brother, but i feel damn lazy.
Stayed home with brother, ibu and nenek. At 9.30 mum and dad came
home. So we just watch TV for countdown & hear fireworks from CWP -.-
I was worried that i cant get thru boyfriend just now.
Lucky he called me after 20 mins of waiting.
He's celebrating with friends. hmm. Im so bored actly, but at the same
time im lazy & not feeling well for the past 1 week.
I dont know when im getting better.I alrdy get my result. Thanks malee for cheking it for me.
I was really fuckup when i cant look at my result.
Im really glad that i improve my point. Though i only get
1.5 but who cares? i still improve by 0.3 points.
Im happy enough. Im gonna work hard this year. Insyallah, 2.0-2.5.
If others can do it, why cant i?Hell yeah, im gonna wait for my Birthday then i can buy Ciggy on my own.
Probably enrolling for driving lesson eoy or next year or the very
next year? im not sure. My parents dont really want me to take driving
license since they know im scared of road and vihecals.
I guess, i'll just try my best. I hope boyfriend will get his motor
license by end of this month. He's been working hard on it and im sure
he'll make it by end of this month. I know you can do it syg!Alright, goodluck in everything you do people!
Everyone seems to be celebrating thier new year with friends.
But as for me, im just rotting at home or maybe spending
time with my family outside. Last year, was quite fun cause i met my
friends including heed tagging along. Laugh alot and played
'heart attack'. Went home at almost 1.30 am.First year in ITE, i must say that it sucks alot.
Lots of things going on and its not what i expected. I didnt expect to
have such subject that i will be learning. Well, its good for me but
everyday when i step into the class, my mind will tend to be blank
and i dont understand a single thing. I lost intrest in studies i must say.
Its not that im crazy inlove with my boyfriend but its just that
i got no heart to study. Im only good in Practical not Theory.
I've done my best for the EOY. Im not sure if i pass the paper.
How i wish it was 60% practical and 40% Theory. If that, im sure gonna
make it and make my parents feel proud of me. I thanks god for having
heed and malee. If i dont have them, i guess i'll be quiting school.
Thanks guys for supporting me in my studies and have always listen to
my probs. Luv ya!Thanks to my dearest sister, that i didnt work till today.
If not, i would have celebrated my new year with friends & boyfriend.
Like seriously, you should have told me that i wont get the job
or atleast say that the manager is busy. I totaly hate when
people tell me that thier place have vacancies but end up they dont.
And make people wait and wait and wait. I fucking waited for
3 weeks and there's no answer from her till now, she didnt even tell
me anything. Thanks alot.
Idk why, but this year, i have been very patience with her everytime.
When she's around i just feel like going out and not to see her face.Will be having a relaxing day with cousins
on 1 Jan 2011 at my house. Dicussing on our trip to Bandung
next year which is on march. Great! 2 Trip in a month.
Hopefully, i get a job as soon as possible so that i can spend
my own money on India trip next year, without using my parents
money. I really dont want them giving me money for my trip,
cause i think they can use the money for something better?How pathetic is that, my classmate and i wont get any pay for
our attachment. This is another one more thing that im thinking
about. Why are we not being paid like nursing students?
I just feel like no use going for attachment without being paid.About the India Trip, dont know how are gonna raise $1250.
Its really alot of money to raise and lucky speyka decided to
combine group with her's. And yet im the leader in the group.
Wtf?! I really dont know if i could manage my team members.
Having someone in my group which is not my favourite, i seriously
dont know how can i work with that person. I hope Ms P will see
my potential in being a leader. Hopefully that someone wont
ruin and tries to control everything like as if she's the one who has
been doing everything. I hope 2011 will be a better year.
I know, everyone hopes to have a better year every year.I thank god for having my Boyfriend in my life.
I've always needed and wanted someone like you.
I dont care if you're shorter/smaller than me, cause i love you.
Im glad that we've gone this far, 8 months and going 9 months together.
After 1 year and 3 months of being single, finally i found someone who could
bring back the smile on my face, being loved & care.
Thank you for being patience with me for the past 8 months.
I know i've been very hot tempered towards
you all this while. Please bare with me.
No matter what, i'll go thru thick and thin with you.
I love you alot baby.
 I wonder why must the thief steal his wallet and ciggs not mine. The first day was, okay. We just chilled, took pictures. And didnt do anything much. Its not really crowded. The second day which is today, sucks. Boyfriend lost his wallet and ciggy. At first while we were cleaning up, he was looking for his ciggy. I tried to find all over the place but couldnt find them. So he was alrdy pissed of and we didnt even think people would steal them. Then, while we finish cleaning up, he then realise he lost his wallet too. Search in and out his bag and my bag, but couldnt be found. He really pissed of and called everyone he could call. I tried to cool him down but i guess i didnt. Cause if i were him, i will be very pissed of. The thing is, how come his lighter is in his bag? rokok ader lighter takder. wierd. Then we decided to make a polise report nearby since he lost his NS ic. The fucking shock thing is, the police cant make any report cause all system breaks down. I was like WTF?! every Singapore police post system break down?! She still can say, sorry we cant help you to make the report. We walk away and sit down in the middle of nowhere. then, headed to woodlands, lucky the person didnt steal my wallet. If not both have got no cash to go home. During the first time we thon, boyfriend lost aideel's shirt. That one, we were very curious. How could it lost while we were in the tent from morning till night? Its like, missing just like that. And now, his wallet and ciggy. hmm. Wierd uh.
 Christmas eve (:
 i miss my boyfriend fucking much. Though we've alrdy went for a jog together yesterday. But still i miss you very very very muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Yet, i cant spent my time with you on your birthday which is this 25 Dec; Christmas. Im really sorry and i hope you really understand my situation. Hopefully i get my freedom, next year 18(: As for today, im just rotting at home and will be going for a jog later night with my brother. And i've been listening to MJ 12 with my brother. How sweet he gave up his matt just to let me sleep on it yesterday night. I've been spending my night with him. Now, i really feel very scared cause, i tend to remember ghost stories. Ouwell, today im gonna make it the last day listening to MJ 12. I cant wait for 27-28 dec, i love you boyfriend.
 Over the past 6 years, our band has been through some of the most intense and incredible experiences of our lives. None of these things have been without trial. We've worked so hard to get to where we are and the fact that you are all still here with us says something about you that we will never be able to truly understand. You have stuck with us through thick and thin and we are so grateful. A couple of months ago, Josh and Zac let us know they would be leaving the band after our show in Orlando last Sunday. None of us were really shocked. For the last year it hasn't seemed as if they wanted to be around anymore. We want Josh and Zac to do something that makes them happy and if that isn't here with us, then we support them finding happiness elsewhere. But we never for a second thought about leaving any of this behind. We really hope that you can be encouraged by the fact that the three of us who are still here are ready to take on another chapter of our journey together. You have always been what keeps us going
so why would we stop now? We want to stick by you. Knowing that we have a unified passion and a clear vision makes us feel stronger than ever.
The "blog" that was posted regarding everything that is going on with our band was a fake. We aren't sure who did it or why... And we aren't sure how they timed it this way. This is the first time that we have spoken out about what's going on and we wouldn't have released an official statement that important through a personal blog. So, we're sorry for any confusion and just to remain clear, this is the first time we have spoken out about this.
We have some amazing things lined up for next year starting with our tour in South America. We are still coming to you and we are excited about who we are bringing with us! The tour is still on and we can't wait to see you all.
As we look back, and now as we look with excitement to the future, in all of this what truly matters are the good times. The pictures of us with our arms around each other, the long van rides, your faces while you sing along as we play. Thank you for getting us right here to this very moment. We look forward to our best times. And we hope you will go there with us. Love, Hayley, Jeremy & Taylor Paramore I really cant believe that Josh and Zac are leaving!!
 Today, im so happy that mum let me cook my own favourite food! My whole family went JB this morning except for me and wana. The reason why both of us didnt wanna follow them is because wana is currently having two weeks MC due to chicken pox and i have to look after the house/clean/cook for everyone.
Went to wet market with boyfriend at 8.30 am Thankyou so much for carrying the chicken syg(: I reach home, quickly start on the recipe. But one fucking thing happen that make me stuck for 30 mins, i cant open the pasta sauce! NBCB! I dont know why, i called my boyfriend & was angry. When i get fustrated on one thing, everything tends to be irritated. So suddenly, something just come out from my head & finaly i can pour out the sauce.
After finish everything, did the BBQ stuff. Penat sia. I dont know how many sticks i've done and now my whole body feel/smell very fishy. Eww! Didnt do everything as im really fucking tired right now.
 Omg! I totaly forget about my blog. Ouhwell, i shall say im quite happy this few days cause im spending more time with my Family. As in only my family, not with my cousins. Really its been a long time since i spent time with my own family. Now is Holiday, gonna be having 4chr BBQ on monday. Met shak, azrul & egg for the BBQ disscusion. Thank god we got emmirul cause he's good in calculating (; As for today, shak didnt tag along but Chiqka and Boyf did. Bought stuff and headed to my house. Had our lunch at 883 and everyone is off to business. Tmrw, dah start nak kener cocok hotdog sume. I really miss my bby. Went for a jog with him just now. Still, I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! ):
 last paper tmrw and thats it! Hopefully i get a part time work at sister's place. I want moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Ouh well, i've been going out to study with my usual. Dont know if i can make it tmrw's paper. Must be very difficult ): pray me all the best k. I miss my boyfriend very much.
I just feel like killing myself for being so fat right now )':
 Saw Kim Hyum Joong at tamp mall!
& FREE STARBUCKS DRINKS! WOHHOOOOOO! Actly, our intention was to line up for free starbucks but then malee suddenly stop at a crowd place. I didnt know anything then alot of people were shouting. When malee say its Kim Hyun Joong coming, i shouted too cause 'tompang' excited. Im not a big fan of him but when you know someone is a celebrity or superstar, you will tend to get excited ^^ Then, after seeing his face, went to starbucks & almost to 1 hour 30 mins of queing up. Damn tired sakk. But who cares! FREE DRINK @ STARBUCKS! I miss my boyfriend. Goodluck for your IPPT. YOU CAN DO IT BBY!
 I admit, i act so childish. I was very selfish to everyone. Always think about me, myself not others not even you. How could i do that? I really cant believe i did that. Im sorry that i over reacted, but im glad you know how i felt. I really didnt mean to hurt you & others but if i continue keeping everything to myself and not telling you, im hurting myself. Sorry if i let it out here, cause i dont know how to express everything to you or others. Since young, i've always been like this. Keeping to my own, hurting myself again and again. I hate to be hurt. Now when im trying to speak up, everything seems to be wrong. Or maybe i dont know how to say it right thats what makes people think im in the wrong. Sometimes, i just wish i were mute, deaf, blind so that i wont talk to make people hurt, hear whatever hurtful
words about me, cant see anything that makes me hurt or sad.
All i wanted was to make you+me= Happy.
Happy new year everyone.(:
Thought of going to CWP with my brother, but i feel damn lazy.
Stayed home with brother, ibu and nenek. At 9.30 mum and dad came
home. So we just watch TV for countdown & hear fireworks from CWP -.-
I was worried that i cant get thru boyfriend just now.
Lucky he called me after 20 mins of waiting.
He's celebrating with friends. hmm. Im so bored actly, but at the same
time im lazy & not feeling well for the past 1 week.
I dont know when im getting better.I alrdy get my result. Thanks malee for cheking it for me.
I was really fuckup when i cant look at my result.
Im really glad that i improve my point. Though i only get
1.5 but who cares? i still improve by 0.3 points.
Im happy enough. Im gonna work hard this year. Insyallah, 2.0-2.5.
If others can do it, why cant i?Hell yeah, im gonna wait for my Birthday then i can buy Ciggy on my own.
Probably enrolling for driving lesson eoy or next year or the very
next year? im not sure. My parents dont really want me to take driving
license since they know im scared of road and vihecals.
I guess, i'll just try my best. I hope boyfriend will get his motor
license by end of this month. He's been working hard on it and im sure
he'll make it by end of this month. I know you can do it syg!Alright, goodluck in everything you do people!
Everyone seems to be celebrating thier new year with friends.
But as for me, im just rotting at home or maybe spending
time with my family outside. Last year, was quite fun cause i met my
friends including heed tagging along. Laugh alot and played
'heart attack'. Went home at almost 1.30 am.First year in ITE, i must say that it sucks alot.
Lots of things going on and its not what i expected. I didnt expect to
have such subject that i will be learning. Well, its good for me but
everyday when i step into the class, my mind will tend to be blank
and i dont understand a single thing. I lost intrest in studies i must say.
Its not that im crazy inlove with my boyfriend but its just that
i got no heart to study. Im only good in Practical not Theory.
I've done my best for the EOY. Im not sure if i pass the paper.
How i wish it was 60% practical and 40% Theory. If that, im sure gonna
make it and make my parents feel proud of me. I thanks god for having
heed and malee. If i dont have them, i guess i'll be quiting school.
Thanks guys for supporting me in my studies and have always listen to
my probs. Luv ya!Thanks to my dearest sister, that i didnt work till today.
If not, i would have celebrated my new year with friends & boyfriend.
Like seriously, you should have told me that i wont get the job
or atleast say that the manager is busy. I totaly hate when
people tell me that thier place have vacancies but end up they dont.
And make people wait and wait and wait. I fucking waited for
3 weeks and there's no answer from her till now, she didnt even tell
me anything. Thanks alot.
Idk why, but this year, i have been very patience with her everytime.
When she's around i just feel like going out and not to see her face.Will be having a relaxing day with cousins
on 1 Jan 2011 at my house. Dicussing on our trip to Bandung
next year which is on march. Great! 2 Trip in a month.
Hopefully, i get a job as soon as possible so that i can spend
my own money on India trip next year, without using my parents
money. I really dont want them giving me money for my trip,
cause i think they can use the money for something better?How pathetic is that, my classmate and i wont get any pay for
our attachment. This is another one more thing that im thinking
about. Why are we not being paid like nursing students?
I just feel like no use going for attachment without being paid.About the India Trip, dont know how are gonna raise $1250.
Its really alot of money to raise and lucky speyka decided to
combine group with her's. And yet im the leader in the group.
Wtf?! I really dont know if i could manage my team members.
Having someone in my group which is not my favourite, i seriously
dont know how can i work with that person. I hope Ms P will see
my potential in being a leader. Hopefully that someone wont
ruin and tries to control everything like as if she's the one who has
been doing everything. I hope 2011 will be a better year.
I know, everyone hopes to have a better year every year.I thank god for having my Boyfriend in my life.
I've always needed and wanted someone like you.
I dont care if you're shorter/smaller than me, cause i love you.
Im glad that we've gone this far, 8 months and going 9 months together.
After 1 year and 3 months of being single, finally i found someone who could
bring back the smile on my face, being loved & care.
Thank you for being patience with me for the past 8 months.
I know i've been very hot tempered towards
you all this while. Please bare with me.
No matter what, i'll go thru thick and thin with you.
I love you alot baby.
I wonder why must the thief steal his wallet and ciggs not mine. The first day was, okay. We just chilled, took pictures. And didnt do anything much. Its not really crowded. The second day which is today, sucks. Boyfriend lost his wallet and ciggy. At first while we were cleaning up, he was looking for his ciggy. I tried to find all over the place but couldnt find them. So he was alrdy pissed of and we didnt even think people would steal them. Then, while we finish cleaning up, he then realise he lost his wallet too. Search in and out his bag and my bag, but couldnt be found. He really pissed of and called everyone he could call. I tried to cool him down but i guess i didnt. Cause if i were him, i will be very pissed of. The thing is, how come his lighter is in his bag? rokok ader lighter takder. wierd. Then we decided to make a polise report nearby since he lost his NS ic. The fucking shock thing is, the police cant make any report cause all system breaks down. I was like WTF?! every Singapore police post system break down?! She still can say, sorry we cant help you to make the report. We walk away and sit down in the middle of nowhere. then, headed to woodlands, lucky the person didnt steal my wallet. If not both have got no cash to go home. During the first time we thon, boyfriend lost aideel's shirt. That one, we were very curious. How could it lost while we were in the tent from morning till night? Its like, missing just like that. And now, his wallet and ciggy. hmm. Wierd uh.
Christmas eve (:
i miss my boyfriend fucking much. Though we've alrdy went for a jog together yesterday. But still i miss you very very very muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Yet, i cant spent my time with you on your birthday which is this 25 Dec; Christmas. Im really sorry and i hope you really understand my situation. Hopefully i get my freedom, next year 18(: As for today, im just rotting at home and will be going for a jog later night with my brother. And i've been listening to MJ 12 with my brother. How sweet he gave up his matt just to let me sleep on it yesterday night. I've been spending my night with him. Now, i really feel very scared cause, i tend to remember ghost stories. Ouwell, today im gonna make it the last day listening to MJ 12. I cant wait for 27-28 dec, i love you boyfriend.
Over the past 6 years, our band has been through some of the most intense and incredible experiences of our lives. None of these things have been without trial. We've worked so hard to get to where we are and the fact that you are all still here with us says something about you that we will never be able to truly understand. You have stuck with us through thick and thin and we are so grateful. A couple of months ago, Josh and Zac let us know they would be leaving the band after our show in Orlando last Sunday. None of us were really shocked. For the last year it hasn't seemed as if they wanted to be around anymore. We want Josh and Zac to do something that makes them happy and if that isn't here with us, then we support them finding happiness elsewhere. But we never for a second thought about leaving any of this behind. We really hope that you can be encouraged by the fact that the three of us who are still here are ready to take on another chapter of our journey together. You have always been what keeps us going
so why would we stop now? We want to stick by you. Knowing that we have a unified passion and a clear vision makes us feel stronger than ever.
The "blog" that was posted regarding everything that is going on with our band was a fake. We aren't sure who did it or why... And we aren't sure how they timed it this way. This is the first time that we have spoken out about what's going on and we wouldn't have released an official statement that important through a personal blog. So, we're sorry for any confusion and just to remain clear, this is the first time we have spoken out about this.
We have some amazing things lined up for next year starting with our tour in South America. We are still coming to you and we are excited about who we are bringing with us! The tour is still on and we can't wait to see you all.
As we look back, and now as we look with excitement to the future, in all of this what truly matters are the good times. The pictures of us with our arms around each other, the long van rides, your faces while you sing along as we play. Thank you for getting us right here to this very moment. We look forward to our best times. And we hope you will go there with us. Love, Hayley, Jeremy & Taylor Paramore I really cant believe that Josh and Zac are leaving!!
Today, im so happy that mum let me cook my own favourite food! My whole family went JB this morning except for me and wana. The reason why both of us didnt wanna follow them is because wana is currently having two weeks MC due to chicken pox and i have to look after the house/clean/cook for everyone.
Went to wet market with boyfriend at 8.30 am Thankyou so much for carrying the chicken syg(: I reach home, quickly start on the recipe. But one fucking thing happen that make me stuck for 30 mins, i cant open the pasta sauce! NBCB! I dont know why, i called my boyfriend & was angry. When i get fustrated on one thing, everything tends to be irritated. So suddenly, something just come out from my head & finaly i can pour out the sauce.
After finish everything, did the BBQ stuff. Penat sia. I dont know how many sticks i've done and now my whole body feel/smell very fishy. Eww! Didnt do everything as im really fucking tired right now.
Omg! I totaly forget about my blog. Ouhwell, i shall say im quite happy this few days cause im spending more time with my Family. As in only my family, not with my cousins. Really its been a long time since i spent time with my own family. Now is Holiday, gonna be having 4chr BBQ on monday. Met shak, azrul & egg for the BBQ disscusion. Thank god we got emmirul cause he's good in calculating (; As for today, shak didnt tag along but Chiqka and Boyf did. Bought stuff and headed to my house. Had our lunch at 883 and everyone is off to business. Tmrw, dah start nak kener cocok hotdog sume. I really miss my bby. Went for a jog with him just now. Still, I miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! ):
last paper tmrw and thats it! Hopefully i get a part time work at sister's place. I want moneyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Ouh well, i've been going out to study with my usual. Dont know if i can make it tmrw's paper. Must be very difficult ): pray me all the best k. I miss my boyfriend very much.
I just feel like killing myself for being so fat right now )':
Saw Kim Hyum Joong at tamp mall!
& FREE STARBUCKS DRINKS! WOHHOOOOOO! Actly, our intention was to line up for free starbucks but then malee suddenly stop at a crowd place. I didnt know anything then alot of people were shouting. When malee say its Kim Hyun Joong coming, i shouted too cause 'tompang' excited. Im not a big fan of him but when you know someone is a celebrity or superstar, you will tend to get excited ^^ Then, after seeing his face, went to starbucks & almost to 1 hour 30 mins of queing up. Damn tired sakk. But who cares! FREE DRINK @ STARBUCKS! I miss my boyfriend. Goodluck for your IPPT. YOU CAN DO IT BBY!
I admit, i act so childish. I was very selfish to everyone. Always think about me, myself not others not even you. How could i do that? I really cant believe i did that. Im sorry that i over reacted, but im glad you know how i felt. I really didnt mean to hurt you & others but if i continue keeping everything to myself and not telling you, im hurting myself. Sorry if i let it out here, cause i dont know how to express everything to you or others. Since young, i've always been like this. Keeping to my own, hurting myself again and again. I hate to be hurt. Now when im trying to speak up, everything seems to be wrong. Or maybe i dont know how to say it right thats what makes people think im in the wrong. Sometimes, i just wish i were mute, deaf, blind so that i wont talk to make people hurt, hear whatever hurtful
words about me, cant see anything that makes me hurt or sad.
All i wanted was to make you+me= Happy.
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