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 I dont understand why you have to be mad at him. Looking at his face, i just feel like crying, but i control. You work so hard for our family, and i somehow just feel that she is not being understanding at all. Maybe because im not married yet, thats why i dont know how the situation is. But im grown up now. I know what's all this shit going on. Why is she always blaming him? Why is she always putting so much pressure on him? Its just no point, having lots of people working in th house but still, we're going lower. Unlike last time. I just cant wait for the other two to get a new house, hopefully life will be much more easier without you two. Yes, i may sound very harsh but look, he is the only one supporting the 8 of us. I'll promise that i will work hard for my family like he is doing right now. I cant bare looking at him being treated this way.
 I miss them all. Didnt attend school yesterday as i've done both my phase test plus, im lasy to attend DTC lesson. Headed to boyfriend house at 9.30 am. Watch TV and off to 883 for Breakfast. Spent time with him yesterday and now, i still miss him ): Currently waiting for my two lovely girls (heed & malee) to wake up and call me. We're going swimming today. Alright, im still looking for jobs like mad! bye. Today is friday, blog is CB.
 i hate home. Everyone is pissing me off. Totally hate you to the fucking core! Im not talking to anyone unless i feel like talking. If not just shut up and i wont even have the fucking mood to talk to anyone especially YOU. If you're not at home, life is so PEACEFUL! Finish my voth phase test today. Wasnt that difficult for me but idk why Mr. G gave me a pathetic smile/look. hmm. If i flunk, im just gonna give up on my studies. sucks! I've been looking for jobs so as Susan. Dont know what to work. But if possible, i just wanna work at CWP. Easier for me to travel back home if i end late/if there is no bus. I need a part time job ASAP. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
This will just be a short post. Currently, im just revising and practicing on my phase test tmrw. 2 phase test on 1 day. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! I alrdy flunk my DTC paper but over all i pass. Thank god. I decided not to retake the paper cause high chances i will fail the paper. As for tmrw, will be celebrating heed's bdae at Arnolds. Boyfriend will be tagging along. Its been 4 days straight that i've been going for a jog with my brother. Really working out and giving all my best so that i can be thin by next year. Insyallah.
   Pictures was taken during boyfriend's Station 43 BBQ. Today is Sunday and tmrw is another day off for me and some other of my classmates cause we're not having phase test. Will be meeting my boyfriend & going for a jog with him. Been spending two whole days at home just studying my phase test, use the computer & otp with boyfriend. Did go for a jog with my brother. Very random. He stop halfway due to his leg. Currently right now just munching on Snickers & waiting for boyfriend to call. Wonder whats happening on him right now. Im worried but i have to chill. I think i better get part time job before next year cause i wanna save up my money for India trip next year. I just get irritated when my mum and dad is quarreling about money. Thats why its better for me to get a part time job now so that i could use it for my school stuff or whatsoever that i want. Even if im having attachment for six months next year, we wont be paid. I know its like fuck but what to do. hmm.
     Yesterday, didnt attend school as i feel very lazy plus no one to help my mum, i decided to meet boyfriend. Headed for breakfast with his Station friends @ Woodland Mart & off to his crib. Then, after he has alrdy decided of what to where to my house we then proceed & mum was very busy preparing for Buka. Cause nenek, Acaap & ibu is fasting for the eve of hari raya haji. Dad was teasing him. Ask him to eat. Then took pictures webcam with him. As for today, woke up early to help my mum cook speghetti ^^ Okay, byebye people. Today is wednesday btw.
Have been in bad terms with baby for the past few days.
I seriously dont know what else to do. But alhamdulilah we solve everything on wed night. Sorry if i were being too harsh. i Love you.
As for yesterday, ended class at 2 & we need to go to indoor sports hall for Business event. It was very boring. Mr godffrey told us that we can leave after 3 but group by group. Went home with heed while malee was incharge for the thing so we didnt go back home with her. Reached home, bathe and watch TV & i didnt realise i was sleeping until it was 7.30pm. Get in my bedroom & around 9.30 or 10 recieve call from baby. Continue sleeping. So now here i am, infront of the computer. currently its 8.18 am. Going out at 930. Chaos.
 I wanna buy maxi dress! Today is FRIDAY not thursday idiot! K just fuck the day of this post. i hate blogger because of this.  Well, just now, after school met bby at tamp & watch movie. DUE DATE. very funny movie. Then headed to DBG for jamming. After that, slack for awhile & off home. Tmrw going out with bby again to bugis(: I love you so much. Thanks for the day. mwuah!
 I miss my boyfriend alot. I know we've met few hours ago but i dont know why i just feel like we're far. Im sorry that i couldnt spent much time with you nowadays. & please dont think that i've change. I love you and only you in my heart. Sorry for being too sensitive at times. Im sorry for not being a good girlfriend. I just love you & i know you feel the same way too. Sometimes, i dont undertsand why i get so emotional. This coming Friday, im not sure where to go with bby. I wanna watch movie but, i dont know what movie to watch. Wanna go place to eat, dont know what to eat. Wanna go place to chill, dont know where to chill. I still have lots of place to go with him but i dont want him to spent all his money just on me. I know he loves me but i cant expect him to always paying for everything. I want him to save up so that he can get what he wants, which is a bike. I seriously need to update my closet. I wanna buy new dress, top, jeans, shoes and stuff. I've been looking at the magazine & internet for the past few hours. when can i buy those stuff that i want? ):
 Was cleaning my room yesterday and found old pictures of me when i was sec 1 to 4. I started crying alone in the room, looking back when i was much more thinner. I dont know why i get so emotional when it comes to this. People usually say that they dont even care if they're fat. But as for me, i just feel like crying whenver people around are telling me " ey! you look so fat sia now! " I act as if i dont take it to my heart, but the actual thing is, i did. I did go for a jog, i only take 1 meal per day. Still, no big different.
What the hell am i gonna do? all this doesnt work for me! I just feel like killing myself for being so fat right now! )': I really really feel like killing myself. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck! Labels: one fine day
 No matter what, we will go thru thick and thin together. We will always be together and do things together. I dont want you to give up that easily cause we have alrdy make it that far. Soon this coming 13 November, it'll be our 7 months toegther. I dont wanna loose you just like that cause you're my everything , forever & i need you always. Stop thinking all the negative things please think the possitive way. We will make it through, insyallah. I love you and will always do bby.
     Sorry for leaving this blog dead. Been busy with family & school. I dont know how to start but i guess, i dont have to tell everything that alrdy happen. As for yesterday, celebrated Faris Birthday @ Malaysia. Home at 11 pm. Today, didnt attend my religious class since im very very tired due to yesterday. I went for a jog with my baby. After a long time of not having trainings my stemina seems to be very low. ): Only 2 rounds of jog, im alrdy tired. hmm. Going for a jog again tmrw, with bby. Alright. I've got nothing much to say. Waiting for my cousing and his wife to come. Sayonara ^^
I dont understand why you have to be mad at him. Looking at his face, i just feel like crying, but i control. You work so hard for our family, and i somehow just feel that she is not being understanding at all. Maybe because im not married yet, thats why i dont know how the situation is. But im grown up now. I know what's all this shit going on. Why is she always blaming him? Why is she always putting so much pressure on him? Its just no point, having lots of people working in th house but still, we're going lower. Unlike last time. I just cant wait for the other two to get a new house, hopefully life will be much more easier without you two. Yes, i may sound very harsh but look, he is the only one supporting the 8 of us. I'll promise that i will work hard for my family like he is doing right now. I cant bare looking at him being treated this way.
I miss them all. Didnt attend school yesterday as i've done both my phase test plus, im lasy to attend DTC lesson. Headed to boyfriend house at 9.30 am. Watch TV and off to 883 for Breakfast. Spent time with him yesterday and now, i still miss him ): Currently waiting for my two lovely girls (heed & malee) to wake up and call me. We're going swimming today. Alright, im still looking for jobs like mad! bye. Today is friday, blog is CB.
i hate home. Everyone is pissing me off. Totally hate you to the fucking core! Im not talking to anyone unless i feel like talking. If not just shut up and i wont even have the fucking mood to talk to anyone especially YOU. If you're not at home, life is so PEACEFUL! Finish my voth phase test today. Wasnt that difficult for me but idk why Mr. G gave me a pathetic smile/look. hmm. If i flunk, im just gonna give up on my studies. sucks! I've been looking for jobs so as Susan. Dont know what to work. But if possible, i just wanna work at CWP. Easier for me to travel back home if i end late/if there is no bus. I need a part time job ASAP. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
This will just be a short post. Currently, im just revising and practicing on my phase test tmrw. 2 phase test on 1 day. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! I alrdy flunk my DTC paper but over all i pass. Thank god. I decided not to retake the paper cause high chances i will fail the paper. As for tmrw, will be celebrating heed's bdae at Arnolds. Boyfriend will be tagging along. Its been 4 days straight that i've been going for a jog with my brother. Really working out and giving all my best so that i can be thin by next year. Insyallah.
Pictures was taken during boyfriend's Station 43 BBQ. Today is Sunday and tmrw is another day off for me and some other of my classmates cause we're not having phase test. Will be meeting my boyfriend & going for a jog with him. Been spending two whole days at home just studying my phase test, use the computer & otp with boyfriend. Did go for a jog with my brother. Very random. He stop halfway due to his leg. Currently right now just munching on Snickers & waiting for boyfriend to call. Wonder whats happening on him right now. Im worried but i have to chill. I think i better get part time job before next year cause i wanna save up my money for India trip next year. I just get irritated when my mum and dad is quarreling about money. Thats why its better for me to get a part time job now so that i could use it for my school stuff or whatsoever that i want. Even if im having attachment for six months next year, we wont be paid. I know its like fuck but what to do. hmm.
Yesterday, didnt attend school as i feel very lazy plus no one to help my mum, i decided to meet boyfriend. Headed for breakfast with his Station friends @ Woodland Mart & off to his crib. Then, after he has alrdy decided of what to where to my house we then proceed & mum was very busy preparing for Buka. Cause nenek, Acaap & ibu is fasting for the eve of hari raya haji. Dad was teasing him. Ask him to eat. Then took pictures webcam with him. As for today, woke up early to help my mum cook speghetti ^^ Okay, byebye people. Today is wednesday btw.
Have been in bad terms with baby for the past few days.
I seriously dont know what else to do. But alhamdulilah we solve everything on wed night. Sorry if i were being too harsh. i Love you.
As for yesterday, ended class at 2 & we need to go to indoor sports hall for Business event. It was very boring. Mr godffrey told us that we can leave after 3 but group by group. Went home with heed while malee was incharge for the thing so we didnt go back home with her. Reached home, bathe and watch TV & i didnt realise i was sleeping until it was 7.30pm. Get in my bedroom & around 9.30 or 10 recieve call from baby. Continue sleeping. So now here i am, infront of the computer. currently its 8.18 am. Going out at 930. Chaos.
I wanna buy maxi dress! Today is FRIDAY not thursday idiot! K just fuck the day of this post. i hate blogger because of this. Well, just now, after school met bby at tamp & watch movie. DUE DATE. very funny movie. Then headed to DBG for jamming. After that, slack for awhile & off home. Tmrw going out with bby again to bugis(: I love you so much. Thanks for the day. mwuah!
I miss my boyfriend alot. I know we've met few hours ago but i dont know why i just feel like we're far. Im sorry that i couldnt spent much time with you nowadays. & please dont think that i've change. I love you and only you in my heart. Sorry for being too sensitive at times. Im sorry for not being a good girlfriend. I just love you & i know you feel the same way too. Sometimes, i dont undertsand why i get so emotional. This coming Friday, im not sure where to go with bby. I wanna watch movie but, i dont know what movie to watch. Wanna go place to eat, dont know what to eat. Wanna go place to chill, dont know where to chill. I still have lots of place to go with him but i dont want him to spent all his money just on me. I know he loves me but i cant expect him to always paying for everything. I want him to save up so that he can get what he wants, which is a bike. I seriously need to update my closet. I wanna buy new dress, top, jeans, shoes and stuff. I've been looking at the magazine & internet for the past few hours. when can i buy those stuff that i want? ):
Was cleaning my room yesterday and found old pictures of me when i was sec 1 to 4. I started crying alone in the room, looking back when i was much more thinner. I dont know why i get so emotional when it comes to this. People usually say that they dont even care if they're fat. But as for me, i just feel like crying whenver people around are telling me " ey! you look so fat sia now! " I act as if i dont take it to my heart, but the actual thing is, i did. I did go for a jog, i only take 1 meal per day. Still, no big different.
What the hell am i gonna do? all this doesnt work for me! I just feel like killing myself for being so fat right now! )': I really really feel like killing myself. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck! Labels: one fine day
No matter what, we will go thru thick and thin together. We will always be together and do things together. I dont want you to give up that easily cause we have alrdy make it that far. Soon this coming 13 November, it'll be our 7 months toegther. I dont wanna loose you just like that cause you're my everything , forever & i need you always. Stop thinking all the negative things please think the possitive way. We will make it through, insyallah. I love you and will always do bby.
Sorry for leaving this blog dead. Been busy with family & school. I dont know how to start but i guess, i dont have to tell everything that alrdy happen. As for yesterday, celebrated Faris Birthday @ Malaysia. Home at 11 pm. Today, didnt attend my religious class since im very very tired due to yesterday. I went for a jog with my baby. After a long time of not having trainings my stemina seems to be very low. ): Only 2 rounds of jog, im alrdy tired. hmm. Going for a jog again tmrw, with bby. Alright. I've got nothing much to say. Waiting for my cousing and his wife to come. Sayonara ^^
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I dont understand why you have to be mad at him.
